Here's the thing...
I’m sick of being alone. Even in my last few relationships I was pretty much alone, and I’m sick of pretending that it doesn’t bother me. I don’t want some kind of friends with benefits bullshit arrangement and I don’t want the always painful long distance thing. I want a guy that wants to hang out with me today even though we just hung out yesterday. Someone who cares if I’m upset, hugs me after we fight because we both know we didn’t mean it, and calls me just to see what I’m doing. But no, I never get that. I never get anything simple.